It's hard to believe it's been a year since I started to feel the deep sorrow in my life, I really missed my brother John Aries who passed away last December 18, 2010. To be honest, until now I am in the state of reminiscing the little moments we have shared way back home. I still remember how he felt happy everytime I went home from Manila to our native place Natatas in Tanauan, Batangas riding in my favorite Sym scooter via Tagaytay down to the Ligaya drive. As I arrived, he immediately come to me and greet and asked if he can use my scooter... which I immediately handed to him. A good and silent boy as I knew him, we didn't have much time to talk about how and what his life is going on at that time... but I really knew how he realy feels because I used to be like him more than twenty years ago.
By the time he died, I was really shocked and felt helpless for not doing anything how to get home to the Philippines because at that time I am only in my second month here in this place I am calling -the animal kingdom... and sometimes -the land of the rising and burning sand...
When we lose someone that is so special in our lives, there is a tendency for us to feel emptiness. In my case, after losing my brother, I realized right away what a great, loving person he was. I would be remiss though I didn't mention how funny and comedian he was to his friends. As an elder brother to him, what I did was to include him to all my every night prayer and asked our good Lord for the forgiveness and may he rest in peace. There were times when i thought I should have spent more time with him, but as some are saying.. all are water under the bridge. I do miss him and I know I will never hear his voice again. His memory is all I can have in my mind and my heart.
I try my best not to visualize or remember his death, I would rather preserve the memories of his life and the impact he made while still alive.
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